Some Closure

After the funeral, I hung out with Ben, Charlie, Travis, Kelly, and Tony on the porch and drank and talked and looked at pictures. Then I woke up and posted on my MySpace blog.

Today is indeed the first day of the rest of my life. Classes have ended for the semester, which was, for the most part, awful. I had fun and did a lot of interesting things, but I HATED school this semester. It's hard to get motivated to do something you hate. I've heard that the classes I'm enrolled in for Fall are difficult, but more rewarding. I don't mind working hard if the incentive is there; I'll work my ass off if I think a subject is worth learning. I just hope I can stay on-task for this final leg of my journey as an undergrad.

I'm so ready for summer. I want to "fall in love with life and drink it from a fountain." I'm trying to find a simple way to say this... I want every action I take to be infused and alive with art and beauty. I want to dress in linen and silk, to cook fabulous dinners of colorful vegetables, to spend every moment learning and creating. But above all I want to spend a good portion of my days just sharing love and honest conversation with the ones I care about, or to help those I don't even know.

This blog is where I will chart this journey. It's a little more private than my myspace blog and a little less self-aggrandizing, so I won't feel uncomfortable when I feel compelled to post a lot of shit. It's also a hell of a lot more convenient than always trying to find my paper journal when I need to write stuff down, and I can post pictures.

Tonight, I am cooking a pasta salad for dinner to share with Travis. We already have an unopened bottle of wine to enjoy it with. I love wine... I think I'm in danger of becoming a wino, or at least a wine snob. Depending on how successful I am in the future. The recipe shall be as follows:

"Roots & Crowns" Pasta Salad (We're seeing Califone at the 400 Bar tonight. Woot)

1 package of butternut squash ravioli
3/4 cup pumpkin seeds, toasted
Some goat cheese
carrots, yellow cauliflower, and red cabbage, steamed
Olive oil, mixed with a tiny splash of white wine vinegar, sugar, and chili powder

I am going to get dressed (I'm still in my pj's, cuddling with Lady Briar), ride my bike down to The Wedge to pick up needed ingredients, and come back, throw on my apron and start decopauging some furniture. Eventually, I may work up the motivation to finish the last odds and ends of schoolwork I need to email out to my teacher. I just feel compelled to make today a beautiful day and therefore don't feel compelled to think about school right now. But I must! Boo.